Som en film?

Tanker til mig selv; skal huskes.

Kig rigtigt meget på form og opbygning. Forsøg at bygge en sang op som en film; why not?

Kommende EP 2011 - Nogle tanker

Jeg brugte tidligere min myspace til de danske indlæg, men now da den side skider i helvede, tror jeg bare, at jeg skriver på dansk her fremover.

[note to self: husk at ingen alligevel læser denne blog]

Endnu en flytning er under opsejling, men denne gang er alt som det skal være. Ingen problemer af alvorlig karakter, Så snart det er overstået skal jeg i gang med det næste projekt, som endnu en gang bliver en EP.

Lydmæssigt slås jeg med at vælge mellem den mere akustiske del, og den mere elektroniske del. Men jeg tror måske at det var mine naive forhåbninger om at komme ind på elek. mus. bach. der drev mig i retning af det elektroniske. Men da jeg altid har været håbløs til den elektroniske del af musikken, tror jeg at fokus kommer til at ligge på de mere akustiske lyde. Jeg ved præcist hvordan guitaren skal lyde, trommerne er mere eller mindre på plads, og alt det andet falder bare i hak efterhånden som kompositionerne skrider fremad.

Kompositorisk skal tråden samles op fra DWTT, ingen tvivl. Stilen fra titelsangen, og specielt Heart Harder Weaker Bleak skal føres videre og udvikles endnu mere. Det er den retning der passer mig bedst.

Tekstmæssigt skal temaerne ændres lidt. Noget skal gøres lidt bredere end tidligere, andet skal gå dybere ned end før. Det mørke skal gøres sortere, det håbefulde grønnere, mens det afsporede skal tværes så godt og grundigt ud, at der intet er at misforstå. Smukt, beskidt, komplet og fragmenteret som bare pokker.

Og ikke mindst; husk at fyld lagene ud denne gang. Ikke flere huller.

A new chapter

It's been a long time since I posted anything in here. I have not felt like it. But it has been a wonderful period, these last couple of months. Not that I haven't had my fair share of anxiety and crazy, crazy thoughts; oh no, there has been plenty of that. But for the first time, during these 4 years of I Divorced Life, have I truly felt completely satisfied with my work. I feel that I am nearer now to what I have wanted to become artistically, and that is a very reassuring feeling. Now I can finally leave that old curse behind, and be who I was on course to be back then, before he spoiled it all. I don't need him, at all. I thought I did, and he actively contributed to that feeling. But after a year I am sure that I don't need him at all. God such a fucking waste of time. No more "oh I just recorded this piece, I better check out that it doesn't sound too much like..." or "oh dear, this sounds a little bit like, I better change it". It's over.

You can't be around another creative person for too long without being influenced by him. But you can be too proud to admit to it.

New EP: "Deep Within These Trees"

7 new songs, written and recorded in Aarhus. What a great relief it was to get away from Svendborg!

Listen to and buy "Deep Within These Trees"

The new EP

How do I do this? Why do I keep doing it to myself? Why do I want to keep myself in this stupid race? Do I want to? When there's no prize, then what's the point? I have no idea what I'm talking about anymore, but I do know that these thoughts will be the end of me. Someday. No worries.

The new EP is coming along nicely, and I hope, if any further disasters can be avoided, that I can finish it off before the new year.

The firm ground beneath my feet

What does it all mean? What importance lies within the music if it equals isolation? To me, isolation is absorption and concentration, as long as the anxiety keeps its claws off of me. But the fire is still burning, like a blazing need and a flickering sensation of loss casting shadows all over. What kind of loss? It is still unclear to me. Maybe it is self-evident, and maybe it is not so obvious at all. Am I a victim of circumstance? Or am I the master of my own existence? I would choose the latter, and that does not make the pain any more bearable. The blame is on me then, while the feeling of failure is still smouldering within. For too long I have been failing myself, maybe while projecting my own failure unto others around me, because it is always easier to blame others than to blame yourself. Anyway, the bridges have all burnt themselves, with the aid of yours truly, arsonist. The only bridge left leads to the mainland, and that is my destination. My soon-to-be former tomb can be left forever, and maybe I will able to blow some life into my stagnant existence when I feel the firm ground beneath my feet again.

[I DIVORCED LIFE, LP, EP & LIVE IN 2010]

A weird direction

Things are moving in the right direction now. Even though I have been ill in the last week or so the music has not stopped. Tonight I recorded a song I wrote a couple of weeks ago, and it turned out just the way I'd pictured it. The songs for the upcoming album are taking a weird direction, but I really like it. Some of them are calmer than any of the earlier ones, and others are just way more trashed and messed up than I would have ever dared before. I hope you'll keep tuned in.

All the best

- I Divorced Life